I'm sorry you feel that way about the forum. I usually avoid commenting on things like this, but as a long-time member, I can’t help feeling included in your remarks.
Speaking for myself, I’ve found that the members here genuinely try to help users of all abilities in a polite and respectful way. Your comment that the forum is somehow “up itself” comes across as needlessly hostile, and having looked at your previous posts, I don’t see anything that would justify such a reaction.